There are 3 main reasons why you can have difficulties with the purpose.
1. Unconscious beliefs you have from the culture you grew up/live in and the family
Solution: have a deep dive into the stereotypes you can unconsciously follow.
What is what do you want? It is yours or from the system, you are in/belong to.
2. Total control.
Do you need “to control” – if yes – what exactly? Do you need to know what happened all the time?
Solutions: trust to “what is”.
Work on the topic of trust.
Who controls you? Answer – the mind.
3. Fear of stepping up – fear of taking action.
Fear is a tool of our minds. Fear is our ally, not an enemy. Fear is a learned feeling.
Solution: have a dip dive what is your relationship with a father figure. What is “your way to the father figure”?